Freaks me Ma Blog

i always ask my self why should the man/boy, when proposed to woman, should do this????
a lot of book, so many film title, and so many scene on film use this action and i don’t know what is the of doing it.
is
it just to show how was their feeling to that woman or it’s a way to
show the woman that the man is begging on her and ask gratitude for
what they do?
maybe it was a stupid question but i think that it’s unnecessary to do.
do we live on 19th century right now? no we don’t.
do we did that thing to show how romantic we are? no, i think we have million way to show it.
is it a way to show that we have a serious will on it? nope absolutely not, there are several kind of way to show it.
i still have so many assumption on it, and still i don’t have the rational answer on it.
sometimes people overdue their expression and that’s make it so ridiculous when the other saw it.
why can’t we think to do the other kind of way, the other more creative way when doing something.
we always framed on what the others did and never try to do anything different.
why should we always be afraid of starting something new. is it an ungrateful sin when we try to start it?
most
of us used to think that it’s shameful or it was stupid when we become
different with the common people and that’s why we framed on the
mainstream. there are severe people who tried to make it but when they
stuck on something they’ll retreat, they’ll give up on it, they’ll turn
their back on it.
whatta creepy people they are………………….
hehehehehe it’s start to getting out from the title but i think there is a connected point on it.
what
i try to say here that don’t be afraid to start something different,
don’t be afraid to become a pioneer, and the most important thing is
don’t be a loser when facing the world with that creepy people who live
in it.

ps: i used to be that creepy person, and what i’ve wrote isn’t to attack the gender issue

Q= Question
A=Answer

===maybe i’m the one of you guys, but===
========you’re not the one of me========

swing………….
swing………….
semriwing……….
wuzzz…………
wuzz…………..
klepwazzzzz klepwuzzzzzzzz………..
nice word but neither the best…..
kickass word from a jackass………
damn word from the man of damn…………
unfaithfull word from unfaithfully person……………
the whole word of a fuckin’ whore…………………
that’s the introduction from me when i started to talk with my friend………

(the sentences below was his complain about his life and he share it with me)
whatta brain storm i have in my life…………….
living with the people that i love and i hate so much………
good people leave and fuckin’ bad people arrive…………..
in fact reincarnation what have i’ve done before so that i receive this karma being……..
in fact of good and sin, what do i do so that i live with such a suck live………
maybe yes i’m not a good person but not a bad person either………….’
but why does my life running uneasy like this……………….
mengeluh dan mengeluh lagi……..
i’m sick with this kind of action but nothing that i can do to make myself feel better…….
coz i can’t blame it on the other’s………..
coz i can’t blame it on the Almighty………
wise man said "this is life my son, and you have to get thruogh this"
but how……..?????????
"maybe
you should take a look around you, and saw how was the suffer which the
others have experienced and compare it with your life" the wise man
say………..
than the wise man continued his word "when you’ve finished, you’ll realized how lucky you are"………………..
why does the people always say the same thing…………..
when they experienced the kind of life that i’ve been through they’ll feel the same with me, i guarantee that…………..
"why
did you said so? that’s mean if you fall on the mud or the other dirty
thing the other people have to feel the same too?" wise man talk and
laugh at me……………
"people have their own faith and their
own fate, and that’s the reality of life which they have to face in
their life" said the wise man when he tried to cooled me down……….
"just stay calm and live your life, that’s the main course of living"………..
"people just can try and pray, the harder the life that they have to face, the stronger they’ll be"……………..
"born, live, and death; that’s the thread of fate for all of us"……………..
"we can’t deny it, we can’t runaway from it, all that we can do is got through that and face it……….
and i’m speechless now………………..
the wise man word really hit right on my face……………..
i don’t know what that i feel…………..
i feel ashamed, feel angry, mix into one and don’t what to do…………….
maybe what the wise man say was right………………
i just have to get forward and continue my life…………..
whatever happen, let it be……………………………..
end of conversation

now i’m just laugh at him and say, this is life my friend welcome to the real world……….

Monyong……….
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Monyong……….
Let’s begin the story with an introducing with a boy which is known well as monyong…………
Monyong live in a small city in a funky hut himself…………
Of course he live alone, but there still some friend who accompanied him……
Monyong love his life, and he enjoyed his life so much……….
One day monyong travelled to a big city called Manyun Munjung………..
And he is very franked because there’s a lot of people who have the same behaviour and the same overview like himself…………
He is very happy because finally he have gotten a place to live with people which have a similarity with him………
The day’s goes by and he started to feel bored with his life, start to bored with the similarity that he have with the people there……….
He’s so frustated with his condition lately…………..
And then he start to think, and finally he got the answer…………
He found that there’s no use to life if he didn’t find a challenge in his life……
That he is enjoying to live his constant live without any progress into something brand new…………..
That he enjoying to live with the people who have the similarity with him……..
He feel so suck with that condition…………………..

…………………..GOD BLESS……………………..

Before you read this, I want to make
a statement about my belief in God, which comes up from deep in my self: - I
believe in God 100%, that God is first and last, has ever existed, and will
always exist, and that we are God’s creation, and that God loves us, and that
we owe God everything we are.  I believe that God is the ultimate Self,
yet God is no body as we know others, since nobody can be God, but God is
everybody. Yet, we all don’t make God either. God is never reachable, yet he is
with us all the time, because we are part of what God is.
Now let’s get to the main course……………….
I love life extremely, yet I don’t fear death, because I
believe that death is only a transition between lives. To
me, Life is the manifestation of the Self or conscience in any form. Death is
the end of one life experience and the door to a new life experience as we know
it.  Our body, and also our minds, become old and need to die, so that I
can effectively leave all the old stuff behind, and start with a fresh
beginning: a baby, a new chance, hopefully a healthy child with good parents,
good education and a good chance for a good and inspiring life.
To believe that Icontinues to exist after the death of my
bodies is evident as long as I can believe that my own existence and the
existence of all that I see and touch is not speculation. I believe that i’m
essentially equal to everybody else, and that everybody else’s life is or can
be as unique as my own, i can then accept that I could have been born as
somebody else and have the same feeling with them. So why do we have to always
feel superior or feel inferior when compared with the others.
I always belive and have a belief that we are………..
……………..JUST THE SAME………………………
GOD BLESS…………

first of all gw mo bilang kalo testi ini gw tulis buat ngejawab semua comment dari blog post yang udah gw tulis, bukan karena tersinggung atas comment yg gw terima ato buat ngeles to hide the real me………..
trully gw bukannya cengeng mewek lembek or anything like that…. gw cuman mau loe semua, temen gw, tau kalo i don’t like to hurt anyone…… that’s the point….. gw gak pernah butuh temen yang hormat ato respek ato apalah, ma gw…… gw bukan orang yang gila hormat yang harus di sembah-sembah or dipuja-puja apalagi dikultuskan (cuiiiiiiiihhhhh kaya apaan aja, emang gw malaikat apa)……. gw juga gak nuntut ma temen2 gw biar mereka harus ngertiin gw…. gak banget……..
siapapun yang mau jadi temen gw welcome aja deh….. silakan yang mau, yang gak mau gw gak bakalan maksa loe jadi temen gw……. even like that, i won’t afraid if all my friend would leave me soon or later and i won’t beg them to stay as my friend,,,, sorry i’m not a friend beggar…….
trus juga gw pikir ngapain sih berteman dengan motif ini itu….. barangkali lebih enak kalo gw interract with other tanpa ngarepin apa2 dari temen gw….. maybe sometimes i do need their help, but as long as i can solve my problem without them gw gak bakalan minta bantuan dari mereka….. tendensi yang gw maksud di post gw sebelumnya tuh gw jelasin singkat gini aja….. ngapain loe temenan ma orang lain karena ada maunya doang, kalo loe dah gak butuh ma dia udah aja no more friend relationship, cuihhhh hoeeeeekkkkk phoooooaaaaaahhhh sorry i don’t like to use other or being used by anyone else……. gw cuman bisa nunjukin ini gw, kalo loe suka yah sookoooorrr tapi kalo loe gak suka ma gw ya itu urusan loe……… sorry i never meant to be rough but thats the reality ’bout me…….. apa yang gw bilang mungkin sarkastik banget, yah cuman emang gw adanya yah kaya gitu/////,,,,,,….. whatever the post that i’ve wrote before wasn’t mean to push another people to be my friend or to push my friend so that they have to understand my behaviour…..
gw cuman bisa bilang, here i am this is me…… like or dislike gw gak bakalan ngambil pusing…. that’s all dude……
God bless………………………

i’ve been sittin here…….
try to find my self……
i get behind my self…..
i need to rewind myself…….
(kid rock:only God knows why)
gw gak ngerti kok bisa2nya gw ngulangin the same mistake, but a sweet one. gw selalu nyoba buat flashback ’bout apa yg dah gw lakuin the days before biar gw gak ngelakuin bad things that i’ve been doing before. but still i did the same.
gw gak punya maksud buat ngelakuin itu ‘n gak pernah punya niat buat nyakitin seseorang….
apapun yg gw lakuin adalah the best way that i think of, the best way for anyone walopun itu berat buat gw. karna ini the decission that i’ve made gw harus jalanin whatever happen.
all i can do now is think and think bout the day after…….
and just sittin on my suitcase, smoking, rewind my old memories and anything that can make me forget all of my problem……
gw tau yang gw lakuin itu "chicken" banget tapi mo gimana lagi, gw rasa this is the best for anyone…..
just let the time adjusting the aim where’s all of this would end……
and lets hope that the time made a fair and best decission for everyone……
halah…………..
gw gak nyangka hidup tuh bisa complicated kaya gini……..
and this is not the lifeway that i want…….
all i want is to live my life free…….
gw pengen hidup yang santai………
dimana gw bisa interract ama sapa aja tanpa tendensi apa apa……..
bukannya gw egois, cuman gw rasa lebih enak  aja ngejalanin hidup kaya gitu……
gw cuman bisa berdoa mudah2an Tuhan give the best for anyone…..
and i just can make apology to anyone who’s being hurt dengan apa yang udah gw lakuin……
jujur aja gw gak pernah punya niat buat nyakitin siapa2
God bless

friend, temen, sobat………….
that’s the most important thing in our life………..
penting banget punya temen dalam hidup…..
itu menurut gw, according to me…….
soalnya buat gw temen tuh orang terdekat setelah keluarga…..
cuman gak tau juga temen juga ada yang senengnya nikam dari belakang.,….
attacking from behind…….
kalo gak gitu, mereka cuman pengen jadi temen kalo emang lagi ada perlu…………..
(kaya tukang kredit gitu deh)……….
heran juga sih kok ada yang bisa seperti itu……..
padahal bagusnya sih kalo jadi temen tanpa itung2an n tanpa tendensi apa2…..
kalo jadi temen cuman karena ada maunya sih…………….
go to hell @55h0l3…………………..
i prefer having  one loyal friend than having a thousand @55h0l3 to be my friend……
karena temen gw yang satu ini gak bakal ninggalin gw……
whatever happen to me….
kalo yang a55hol3 sih gw tau banget ntar kalo butuh baru masang muka malaikatnya…..
males banget gw…….
hopefully in the rest of my life, i’ll found a lot of loyal friend………
who will always be my friend whatever happen……………..
yang esshuuullll sono aja deh yang jauhan…..
gw gak butuh temen kaya loe……..’
bukannya milih2 cuman daripada they’re using me…….
i’d be better avoiding to be with them…….
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh whatta daily life problem

i screw up my life…………….
please anyone help me…………….
help needed……………….
coz i don’t know what to do….

PLEASE………………………..